Monday, October 31, 2011

Time at home.....

i normally spent my evening resting or sleeping, but now things have begun to change as i can't rest my eyes.... i don't know why, perhaps it got to do with my pregnancy. my baby's doing fine... things is getting chaos not because i'm concern on my safety lately at the house i rented since june.... i felt so insecure, it even effect my sleep pattern.... this is not good for my baby...it does....i suggested to my hubby that we could moved to another house once i got labored.....

Monday, September 13, 2010

It's Raya Season......2010

It seems for ages for my last posted blog....I lost the count track of time already...I used to blog during my year at UPM...but not anymore...not that rapid....thanks to Dr. Edwin for his amazing tasks and assignments, because of him I manage to make myself a blog....

Lots of things coming through my mind....but where do I start? Maybe I could tell you about my new school, SMK Batu Lapan, Sik....it's a newly open school, with a very breath-taking background, situated at a place where the local called it as 'Charok Sejuk'....and the climate made you feel as if you are at the top of a mountain or you are visiting Cameron Highlands.... believe me, I really love the nature there. I will upload the pictures of my school later when I got the chance...


I'm also getting married to the love of my life, thanks to Allah. He gave me such a wonderful man to live with....and currently we are preparing things for the wedding day.... I am looking forward for my solemnization momento.....can't wait to be a wife and a mother....huhuhuhu....life can be so boring when you feel that you are alone....that is not the only reason why I want to marry him.... I really need him by my side....need you hubby....

Currently still celebrating raya....so today it's been the fourth day already....Ramadhan gone...Syawal came...but I kind of feel the emptiness in this holy season...don't know how to explain...maybe it's because my elder siblings got their own family and busy with their responsibilities....it's not the same anymore when we're just kids....lots of angpau given to us and all the 'duit raya'.....

But above all, I really feel grateful of what I have today, which not everyone can gain it like I do.... thanks again to Allah and my mom for such a full-level of supports.....endless ones....just feel wanted to express my gratitude to Him and her.....syukran.....

Eidul Fitri Mubarak....1431H

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Why I need to Jot This Down...

We have seen the year 2010 had opened the curtain yesterday, and now, it is the symbol of the beginning of another journey we are supposed to do. Some people got a new born baby, some people are anxiously waiting the school to reopen and start their first class teaching. Some people also waiting to be called for a job, a promising job, while others does not know what to do next in their lives. These are the scenario happened each year, whether we are among of these categories of people or not.

Life as a university student gives me a wider scope to look at, to learn about. It was totally different from my previous life, life as a primary and secondary school student. Being among brilliant friends I suppose will show you what is your ultimate purpose by entering the tertiary education level. Make friends with them, learn with them, study with them and even does assignments with them. The crucial part was receiving their advises about being a better person or a better friend to be with. It educates you to become someone you could never imagine that you can become. But these kind of friends are very hard to find. Just picture you and your best friends together going through lots of hardship, loads of assignments with short time to finish, and they are willing to sacrifice their resting time just to submit it on time, along with you...
So hectic but yet so addicted. You will understand my saying once you leave the institution.

Now, reaching up the level by entering life as the teacher, gives me a nervous feeling on how to drive my students towards a successful road...need to prepare mentally and physically. I can't expect someone to succumb to me and help me to go through all this suffering...suffer from being a novice teacher, lack of experience and references. Sometimes when I think about it deeply, I felt a sense of frustration and the need to improve myself, yet in my mastering the language itself and stack of knowledge. Recently we're being dumbfounded by the fact that the Literature Components in English Language have been undergone a massive changes, whereby everything in the genre were totally changed! And another reason this overwhelmed me so much is that I hasn't look yet at the text and receive new syllabus for it... Asking myself why is this happening, and trying rapidly to find solutions to this, I really need someone to tell me it's okay, we'll get over the problem, but none does it to me. If only someone from the ministry/department got a pure heart to tell or warn us earlier for us to get prepared and study all the texts first. This action definitely are killing all English teachers across the country! Why such action taken? Even now if the tsunami return, we got an alarm system to warn the people, but this is totally out of the force. The force to rebuilt all the notes and teacher's understanding all of it before they go to the classes and teach the kids in a short period.